Daddy, I Can’t See You!

by Catherine Doherty

“I am the light of the world,” said Christ. Because he has come, we are no longer living in the shadow of death. We can live in light.

But without darkness, we would not know the light. God allows us to enter the darkness because he desires intensely that we identify with him, who took on himself the darkness of sin.

In the darkness, we experience our helplessness and powerlessness. In the darkness, we are blind. Now God can heal us. The act of faith takes place in darkness, in regions where intellect cannot penetrate.

When we enter this darkness of faith, eventually the light bursts in. But not right away. First God says: “If you believe in me, come.” But most of us are too filled with fear even to start out.

There is a story of a boy in a burning house. His father is outside, calling to him, “Jump! Jump!” The child cries, “Daddy, I can’t see you!” “That’s okay,” the father says, “I can see you.”

We want to see, not only the Father whose arms are poised to catch us, but the very earth beneath his feet. We want everything sorted out and in order. We are afraid to walk into what seems like chaos to us, but is really perfect order to God.

We want to say to God, “Let’s get organized,” and God refuses to organize himself to our standards. We cannot manipulate him—but oh, how we try!

From Grace in Every Season, (2001), March 2, p. 72, MH Publications